Broken Promise

So I broke a promise.

I didn't get anywhere in terms of finding a doctor by Sunday. I did ask 4 of the 6 for advice, and think I know my gameplan now.

It sometimes gets so easy to just forget this all ever happened. Just move right along and pretend there aren't a million things that I still need to sort out. I mean, it hasn't even been a month since I got confirmation!

Part of me wants to pretend like everything is okay, but it's not. Things aren't bad. But they certainly aren't all okay.

I need to get a doctor ASAP. I need to know my CD4 and VL numbers again. I need to know if I should be on meds.

Lots to do. Really have to commit and not let myself down.